A Girl with Two Masks Feb 21 '05    Write an essay on this topic. Tweet Popular Products in Books Mildred D. Taylor - Roll of Thunder, Hear My Cry: A Literature Unit From $8 Olivier Dunrea - Ollie From $7 The Bottom Line It's just mind-blowing when you take the time to think of how others see yourself compared to how you see yourself!! From Updateghost's Perception W/O 1. How do you see yourself? An ice princess turned emotional train wreck. I'm not saying that I ever lacked care for human kind as a whole; in fact it was quite the opposite. I was known for my peacemaking abilities and often acted as a moderator between friends and family members. But in my younger years nothing fazed me emotionally. I acted as if any emotional trauma I suffered (i.e., my father's passing when I was 16) was nothing more than another day. At least publicly. Now, I cry during "Extreme Home Makeover" when they tell the family's story; if I see a dog on the side of the road that has been hit; or basically at the drop of a hat. I also tend to be a bit of a perfectionist which I attribute to the Virgo in me and have to have things my way. In fact, if you met my husband who would me extremely amazed that I can stand him let alone love him. I guess the age old adage that opposites attract ring true in this relationship. 2. What do you believe to be society's perception of yourself? From what I've seen and things that have been said to me I believe close family and friends see me completely different than general acquaintances. Many of the people I just run across on a daily basis see me as kind, loving and very put together. They think I have the perfect life and admire me for that. They find me humorous in a sarcastic kind of way and often wonder what is going to pop out of my mouth the next time I open it. Those that are close to me see me a stubborn, hard-headed little girl who refuses to ask for help when I need it the most. They think that I try to act tough because I have always been the one to lean on. Sometimes they don't understand the decisions I make because I don't keep them informed on the influencing factors. An example of this would be when my first marriage ended in divorce after 3 months. When they find out why months, or even years later, they are truly amazed that they never knew what I was going through and are often times offended that I felt I couldn't open up to them. They think my pride is my downfall. 3. How do you think you will be remembered years after your death? I can't honestly answer this but I can tell you I hope to be remembered. I hope that I am known for my kindness, love and support for those close to me and humankind as a whole. Someone who led a good life, which they could be proud of. Granted I have done some cruel things in my life but I do believe that Karma has come full circle and I have paid my price for these actions. I hope that the current perception of cruelty that I was recently informed some carry of me, mainly ex-boyfriends and friends that I no longer believe are good people to keep in my life, is long forgotten. But to be honest, as long as my children and grandchildren think that I was a good mother and grandmother and I have one or two good friends that attend my funeral I know I can go on from this world a happy person. If you could have any sort of psychological/mental disorder or disease, what would it be? The first thing that came to mine was Obsessive Compulsive Disorder; you could probably even interchange Compulsive with control. Like I said earlier things have to be my way and I am a perfectionist. Seeing as how I have two small children in the house on a daily basis it's rather ironic. I find myself doing the oddest things at the oddest times. How many people do you know who think 1am is a good time to pull out all the furniture out of place to sweep and mop under it? My DVD's, when possible, are generally sorted by category than alphabetized and my CD's are the same. That is, until my children get into the DVD's or my husband starts listening to music. If you've ever met me it would be amazed at the sheer number of either one of these. I even have set "homes" for my 17 month old son's toys and books and get frustrated when my husband cleans up (the few times that he does) since he doesn't do it my way! Not to mention, I have this thing about cleanliness. Maybe it's from working on and off in the restaurant industry for the last 8 years but I can not STAND dirty hands, or sticky ones. I'm constantly washing my hands, as well as my toddlers. Fortunately for me, he loves to take clean diaper wipes and clean them himself; along with his face and anything I will let him wipe down with them!

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