No one said it would hurt like this...
Apr 13 '08
The Bottom Line Enjoy them they grow up too fast!
It has been a very long time since I have written a review so please keep in mind this is more for me than it is for anyone else.
Yesterday was the hardest day of my life...my daughter moved out. She is after all 18 and in college so in my mind I knew this day would come but I never expected it to hurt this bad.
For 18 years I have watched over her and tried to catch her when she fell but now I can't she is gone. And it didn't end pleasantly. There were harsh words that in hind sight I realize there are times when maybe mom should bite her tongue and let her daughter make mistakes for herself but I didn't and it was horrible.
Now keeping in mind that I have three more children at home I should be able to move on from this and just focus on the other three but I laid in bed last night unable to sleep wondering if she were okay and praying she would come home.
She moved in with her boyfriend and his family and I must admit although I am ashamed of it there is a little jealousy that she is there with another "mother" instead of being here with me. It was so sudden and I felt like something was being ripped out of me. You spend so many years raising them protecting them and then they are gone. And while I have a great deal of faith in the kind of person I raised her to be, it is hard to try to think of anyone taking care of her but me even if it is her.
I had to step back and think of how it was when I was 18 years old and I moved out of my parents house to live with my then boyfriend and how upset my mother was and I had to call her and apologize. I wish I knew then what I know now because I would have stayed home and I suppose in some way I was thinking I convince my daughter from making the same mistakes but I couldn't.
And so now I look at my three other children and shudder to think that I have to go through this three more times. And while this may not be the most eliquently written editorial it is from the heart. Cherish every moment with your children they really do grow up so very quickly. And before you know it you are looking at an empty bedroom with walls still covered with mums from homecoming and high school memories and you realize your job is done. And all you can do is sit back and wait and pray you did a good job.
Thanks for listening and God bless all the mothers out there it has to be one of the most heart wrenching jobs out!
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Location: Waco, Texas USA
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Mommy to 4 beautiful children, Megan 18, Haylee 13, Chance 9 and Christopher 3!
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