Gifts that won't come wrapped with a bow....
May 19 '00
OK, so I saw the section "five gifts I'd like," and I got to thinking that there are a lot of things I would like. Now, these are not exactly things you can pick up off the shelves, rather they are more like wishes I wish would come true. Ok, So this time I won't digress, and I'll get to the point. In no particular order:
1. Self-Confidence-- Yes, I know everyone wants confidence. I don't really know who has it, but I guess that everyone has their insecurities. Well some people have called me insecure, while others have ventured out to say that I am conceited. I don't know and to tell you the truth I'm confused. There's a fine line between confidence and arrogance and I'm not even at the confidence stage, so I'm not worrying about being conceited.
What I do know is that I want to be able to stand straight, look in the mirror and like what I see, and really think I'm smart for once. (then my id would fit)
2. Friendship/Love-- Ok, this may either be 1. Lame, or 2. Overdone, but I'm staying with this one. When I think about my past and the present I don't remember any time that I've had a really good friend. Granted, people make mistakes, but it seems that while they make mistakes frequently (and on purpose), mine are few and far in between. Of course this may only be my perception on this issue, but I just want one friend. I want one person that I know I can count on.
These days everyone talks about everyone behind their backs. It may sound like it's never going to happen, but I want a friend that I know will never do that to me, or at least not too frequently.
I want someone that will console me, and vice versa. So far I feel cheated. Every friendship I've tried to hold has failed, and the current ones seem like they're fading, and I wish they would even faster. It seems like there is something wrong with me, but I just want a really good friend.
Ok, the reason I put these two together (besides the fact that it exceeds the number limit) is that they go hand in hand. I feel that there must be friendship before love...or even while you're in love. Of course, I've never been in that situation...but when I do get to be in that situation, I want to make sure it's with someone worthwhile. I don't know how to make sure of that, that's why it's a wish.
3. Beauty-- Ok ok so call me superficial, shallow...what you will, but I'm pretty sure that everyone wants someone to think that they are beautiful. There are different types of beauty that I want though.
There is always the shallow side of me that looks in the mirror and, well, wants to change a thing or two. I don't know if I want to look beautiful, or feel beautiful, but I wouldn't mind either. Right now, it seems that guys my age only go for looks so I mean that sucks. I know I'm not ugly, but I'm no Miss America, which might be a good thing, actually.
The other type of beauty I want is on the inside. I think inner-beauty might just beat out outer-beauty. I feel more confident that I have inner-beauty, than the fact that I have outer-beauty. I don't really understand what inner-beauty is right now, but I know I want it.
4. Success--Yes, I know all of these things are quite the common "wishes," but hey, you don't see me wishing for world peace. Ok, I want that too, but anyhow...Success is a pretty vague word. To me, success means being happy with who you are and what you are doing and earning recognition for yourself.
I am still choosing what career I want...and I'll probably still be choosing it in 3 or 4 years from now. What I do know is that I want to be good at what I do. Everyone around me claims "don't worry, you'll be successful"...but I DO worry. How do they know? I'm sure they are no psychics. It scares me to think that I'll disappoint everybody.
5. Not to care-- This title might make no sense, but what I mean is that I want to be relieved of stress in more than one ways.
1. School-- I wish I wouldn't have to care. I worry so much about school...for nothing. It never helps. Grades are stupid, and if it wasn't for college I wouldn't mind failing.
2. Peers-- Why does everyone care what people think of them? See, if I could take my own advice all would be well. I would go crazy and just be me...that's why I act differently around each person, because I do care what people think of me. As you're reading this...I care what you think of me and this writing. UGH! Why?
3. Everyday obligations--Taking out the dog, washing the dishes...miscellaneous chores.
Basically I just want to sleep all day and do nothing. I guess that's why school was created, but at this rate I'll have grey hairs at 25. :(
Runner-ups--
1. Immortality
2. Chance to meet the Beatles
3. Modesty
4. An A in Biology
5. Eat whatever I want with no consequences
In Conclusion-- I guess this was kind of a stupid list, because I'll probably not be able to acquire any of these listed "items"...at least, it will take me a while. Ok...no more negativity, but anyhow these are all of the abstract things I could think of, because I don't usually write about products. Not as much insight into my mind if I told you about barbie versus if I told you about what I want out of life. Well, I hope you enjoyed this and I hope that any of the above come true! What I really need to wish for is LUCK!
--Smartgrl03
"I wish they would only take me as I am."
-Vincent Van Gogh
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