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Help From A Drug Addict?Apr 29 '00 Write an essay on this topic.After looking around Epinions, I felt that this would be the best place for an editorial of this nature, as this has an impact on many kids and families. I realize that by posting this, I am opening myself up to, who knows what kind of comments and remarks about me personally. If one person that reads this, gets something out of it and makes a decision to do something about their problem, I can handle anything that is said to or about me. The Problem When I was about 16 years old, I was introduced to the world of drugs. All my "friends" were doing it, so I felt that If I did it too, I would be cool and be accepted by them. This was the start of 12 very long years of drug abuse. I used a wide variety over the years, the type does not matter. What wound up happening is that I put the use ahead of everything in my life. The only thing that mattered was either getting or using more. I could not stop. I lost just about everything I had and I was totally miserable, it ruled every aspect of my life. Can you relate? What Is Wrong With Me? There is a demon inside of you, That makes you wander without a clue. It loves to try and hide, but all it does is waits inside. When you think it has gone away, it's ready and waiting for it's prey. It doesn't care if you're young or old, this awful thing is mighty bold. Whether we are up or down, this evil thing is always around. Sometimes we think we're ok, that's when it loves to play. Every time we get a fix, it will show you all it's tricks. If we don't really care or even try, it will gladly help you to die. You think it's your lover and your friend, all it will do is show you the end. If you give up and decide to leave, all your friends & family will grieve. When you get inside your head, that is when it wants you dead. Many people have this affliction, it's called the disease of addiction. What you just read is a poem I wrote on March 9, 1999 and have on a web page along with other recovery poems I have done. If you would like to see more of my work, you can get to my site from my Epinions profile page. The Solution As a direct result of my actions and choices, on May 8, 1989, I was introduced to recovery and made the decision to stop using all drugs. (This includes the liquid one, called alcohol.) A drug is considered to be any mood or mind altering substance To tell you my life has gotten better would be a gross understatement. Words cannot describe how much better my life is as a result of my decision to change my life. What I have, as a direct result of my recovery, cannot be measured in dollars and cents. I have a self-esteem, self-worth and I love who I am today. My family trusts me today and although they may not always agree with some of the choices I have made, they still support me in these decisions. I have friends that don't care how much money I have, what I drive or what kind of things I own. They are there when I need them and they know, I'll be there if they need me. I love life and stay very active in my recovery. Had it not been for my continued willingness to do something to make my life better and having a God of my understanding in my life, I would not be celebrating 11 years clean on May 8th of this year. In Closing I have learned from my experience that anyone can recover. All it takes is honesty, open-mindedness, willingness and a desire to stop. Give yourself a break and try it. What have you got to lose? If you think you might have a problem or know someone that does, please e-mail me and I'll do what I can to answer any questions you might have about my experience with recovery. Thank you for taking the time to read this review. ;o)  |
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